Now, it hasn't always been fun, because we are all flawed, dumb, human beings. Over the last year I have been envious, prideful, insecure, self-centered, hesitant, intimidated, fearful, etc. This list could and probably should keep going, but no reason to bore you with my obvious inadequacies. But over the last year I have seen the very worst of me come out. Emotions and fears that I thought were long gone, were back, hard and heavy. There were times that I felt like quitting, times when I didn't think there was anyway I was going to make it through, and there was ALWAYS an ever-present feeling of NOT BEING GOOD ENOUGH! What is all of this, well these are attacks that Satan tries to use to stop people coming to Christ and God uses to work out the weeds in my soul.
But the friendships that Tim and I have established are amazing. I have never loved a group of people as much as I love the people that I serve with. They are apart of my family. I would do anything for them and they would do anything for me. I have found myself humbled before the Lord lately, praising him for sending me people to hold up my arms during the battle. Once again, our ever-graceful, ever-patient, God has saved the day with his abounding love.
It is not just the AWESOME creative team at RiverPoint, although they are a big part of it. But there are my sisters in Christ, my pastor, and most of all my thoughtful and loving husband. He has seen every little piece of my mess and has believed in me and loved me through it.
So today instead of holding my arms up in battle, I am able to hold my arms up in praise. Thank you Lord for sending people to stand with me in this fight. Thank you Lord for filling the holes in my armor. I Love You Lord.
