John 19:11 Who Is Ultimately In Charge?

Jesus answered, “You would have no power over me if it were not given to you from above. Therefore the one who handed me over to you is guilty of a greater sin.” 

Observation:

Jesus has already been beaten severely and is now wearing a crown of thorns. Pilate still finds no wrong in Jesus, but the crowd is yelling crucify. Pilate is a little shaken up to hear that the man he has before him claims He is the Son of God, so he asks Jesus where He comes from. But Jesus won't answer. I wonder if Pilate recalled their early conversation in John 18 where Jesus says His Kingdom is not of this world? Pilate then tells Jesus that he has the power to set Him free or to crucify Him. I believe Pilate wanted to find a good enough reason not to crucify Christ. However, Christ bursts Pilate's bubble when He says that only God is the One who can set Him free, it is God alone who is ultimately in charge.

Application:

Who has absolute authority in your life and mine? It is God, He alone is Sovereign. If someone hurts me God has allowed it. If I'm sick, God has allowed it. If we have leaders who are oppressive, God has allowed it. But He only allows it for our good and His glory. Today, I'm stepping wayyyyyy outttttt of my comfort zone and trying something that I fear could lead to rejection from the church and displeasure from God. Now in my mind I know that not to be true, but the fear still lingers there whispering in the back of my brain "you better do it perfectly or God will not show up and show out". From this thought pattern it is pretty clear that I think I have the power and am in charge and that God is not sovereign. I'm struggling with believing that God will really do what He says He will and He is who He says He is. I'm struggling with the thought that I could totally fail today and that my failure was all apart of God's plan, now I know it will be for my good and His glory, but it still terrifies me.

Prayer:

Father, today is it, I'm going to get out of the boat and walk on water with You. I know You want me to enjoy this time with You, but I'm too busy looking at all the "what if's" instead of trusting Your goodness. Yet in this moment, before the hour has come, I truly hope I'm ready to surrender. So many times I've been here laying it down only to pick it back up. You know better the working of my heart better than anyone, so You know If this is true surrender. Regardless, of the issue of my heart, bless Your people today with Your word. Give them encouragement my Lord.  Today I praise You for who 

You are and I remind my soul that You are sovereign, You are good, You are faithful, You are righteous, You are my Redeemer, You are Love, You are all that matters.